breakdown....
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New People to People trip that i was trying to go on to australia and New Zealand. The one that i was sooo damn excited about. Day before the interview "i quit", end of trip.

My rabbit farm that i worked so hard to get going and off the ground since 2006ish-2007ish. This weekend, yea... they're all going to the auction. The farm i put over 3 thousand dollars into. Is now going to the auction after almost 4 years of hard work in genetics, raising, showing and a reputation in the Polish and Holland Lop breeds for nice looking and good breeding stock.

The only sport that i do, yea.. beginning of the season(august 2009), I did a practice up a paved hill and after a few days i could barely walk, more likely falling every step, after a couple of days. Went to physical therapy and bought stuff to help my knees and recover. Coach says yea yea he's doing good. he's doing fine. NO! season almost to a end, I turned in my stuff before the biggest meet of the season and I'm out of Cross Country running.

My phone and computer are also being abandoned by me. So this might be the last journal for a long time. Phone is a waste. Computer, problems every time you turn it on nowadays.

w00t im still single and deadly lonely all the time still! ...... november 21st will be one complete year of being single and I've had enough of it.... goodbye.. and i seriously think no one ever reads these journals of mine anyways so why the fucking hell am i still writing these stupid journals? Answer me that question! I suck at foreign languages like spanish, im barely passing the class and i do the work and all it just isn't sticking to me. Im GOTH, i dont fit in with my school, classmates, friends, home, work, nowheres... I started a new part time job this passed week and the guy likes me so far because i actually wanna work and get shit down.

this is a long ass journal.. i guess i'll go back to reading Loveless and The Coffin Club books I started. The Coffin Club book is the fifth book of the series and i haven't read the first four yet so yea interesting and i have to do a review for it by the end of the week or so, same with another book i have started. Loveless im in the eighth volume of that and episode 5 of the TV show of Loveless on youtube.com